I usually try to listen to the weekly BBC broadcasts of Choral Evensong.
For Ash Wednesday, the service came from the Temple Church in London. The "Fantasia in C Minor, BWV 562" was the closing voluntary. It was played expressively, and quite "delicately," which was the way I had intended to play it myself.
However, when I began, the feeling of a torrent of grief was overwhelming to me. The horrific struggle with my hearing drove me to put tissues in my ears, and play this is a massive flood of heartbreak.
I should say that I use the tissues in my ears for most of the music that I record.
The energy seemed to increase within me as I went, and I played it, always pushing forward, hardly backing off until the final cadences.
I played on an "Organo Pleno" including a 16' manual stops, (which is necessary if use the main mixture on the Hoofdwerk), and the 32' Praestant in the Pedaal.
I guess I've "played at" this piece occasionally over the years, but never actually "done it," so, this is the outcome.
I'd give almost anything to be able to hear this, or any music, the way it actually sounds, but I'm forced to hearing the "wrong sounds" in my ears, and imagining the rest in the "ear" within my mind.
If you are a praying person, I would sincerely appreciate your prayers.